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Sep. 2nd, 2019 11:26 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
eraismeMy..."boyfriend" drove 8 hours to see me from Ohio. Someone I've been messing with for a few years now.
I couldn't stay the night in the hotel he got because of my anxiety.
I had a panic attack because of the prospect of not sleeping in my own bed. Which, I know comes from former experiences that aren't that great. It keeps me from traveling. It keeps me from staying over others' houses. It keeps me from staying with my boyfriend.
I had to cancel a day out with him because of my own mental illness...and I feel terrible.
Absolutely fucking awful.
Something has got to give.
I couldn't stay the night in the hotel he got because of my anxiety.
I had a panic attack because of the prospect of not sleeping in my own bed. Which, I know comes from former experiences that aren't that great. It keeps me from traveling. It keeps me from staying over others' houses. It keeps me from staying with my boyfriend.
I had to cancel a day out with him because of my own mental illness...and I feel terrible.
Absolutely fucking awful.
Something has got to give.
